A New Beginning
Can you believe it? We're in the year 2006! It almost feels unreal haha~ Well, just wanna blog a little about my thoughts for the past year 2005.
I dunno bout the rest of us (i speak to CHC peeps), but honestly, i lost my goal card which i did since the beginning of the year and i lost the soft copy of it as well after my hard drive got wiped out by a menacing virus... So yeap, dat was disappointing but dat's ok, cos we all gotta put our past defeats behind us and start anew!
2005 has been a year of ups and downs for me. I've gone through a fair share of spiritual downs whereby i questioned my faith in God. I've found myself in treacherous waters of fear and doubt and my spiritual life took a hard bite. There were times where i started harbouring thoughts of 'What Ifs', the negative kinds. There was a period in time when i totally stopped blogging, if not at the very minimal. Dat period of a lull, almost non existent time. Well, yeap, i've always said dat i would never blog if i didnt find any motivation, conviction, or revelation from the Holy Spirit and much of that period was due to this. The rest of the time, i was either too lazy or just too physically tired to write anything or 'preach' heheh..
NEVERTHELESS, and again i say, NEVERTHELESS. While I was faithless, God remained faithful! While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us amen? And as i look back at the past months of 2005, i'd recall numerous times whereby i just fell real short of the standard dat God has set for me. At least, well, i felt and i knew dat i could have done MUCH better :) But i've come to experience and realise the incredible extent of God's love for us. His mercy truly knows no end! His mercy is like eternity, and if you can comprehend dat, then you can put a mark to it. But i doubt so ;)
The past year, God has opened door after door of opportunity for me. i'd been given the chance to assist the leaders in my zone in a huge event for our CGs and friends; i'd been blessed with so many students to teach drums to; i've been asked to play the drums for one of our affiliated churches (Shekinah Harvest Church) a number of times; i've been given the awesome responsibility of being Assistant Music Director in our church's Christmas Production 2005! These are but a few of the many doors that the Lord has blessed me with :)
You know wat, i am so ABSOLUTELY grateful for all of these to God dat really, all the words i blog in here cant express how much i treasure them! I mean... gosh.. here i am seeing just how crappy i've been over the year, and on the other hand God looks at me with so much love and all?? It blows my mind... really.. Wat have i done to deserve this? Absolutely nothing, but God in His awesome love, decided to look at me like the apple of His eye :) Can you imagine dat? A God who loves me too much to abandon me to my own self and to the snares of sin, dat is the Lord whom i serve :D Though i fall, His hand will uphold me!
Well, i think the one thing that i will take away from it is the fact dat God never changes and is faithful unto the end. A few days ago, on Friday, as i was going back from work at camp, i nearly met with a terrible accident? I was at a T junction about to turn right. there was a car in front of me and as he turned right upon the traffic light showing a green arrow, an oncoming car raced past a struck the bonnet of this guy's car and both card were pretty much busted up. I saw the whole thing with my own eyes and i was just like a mere 3-5 metres from the unfortunate accident. And you know wat, dat could jolly well have been me in dat position, and it could have been much worse. But yet again, God protected me :)
I recall the numerous times where i'd been driving and i wasnt exactly Singapore's most exemplary driver (read: i travel beyond the speed limit and try to beat the next traffic light, weave in and out of traffic, cut corners at high speeds), yes and there was once on a post-rainy day, the roads were wetted for a slight while and the sun came up. Exiting out from the expressway, i took a hard right at 70kmplus and i didnt realised the road was wet and my car drifted... YES, i did an initial D which would have put Jay Chou to shame and i tell u it was SCARy.. honestly, i never felt so scared in a car before.. And yeah it wasnt something to be proud of. I'm mentioning this only as a caution to those of us who might have just graduated from driving school. Pls pls, dun ever drive like you are the king of the road :) I've since learnt to be very very cautious :)
Well, so i repented and told myself never to take His grace and faithfulness for granted again :) Well, God is good all the time :D Earlier on, i was just doing some mind drumming, that is playing drums in my head and voicing it out and.. yeah i was doing some really funky drum groove which was solid.. HAHA! Yeah, and i was set thinking.. if i could think of dat kinda groove in my mind, then surely i could make it happen on the drumset~ Dat reminds me of the power of focus, which was wat Pst Kong preached some weeks back in our JW premise. I was in a state of concentrated focus and my mind just let loose, and i find dat in times like dat is when i come up with some of the most creative stuff in my drums or when i try to compose a tune~
The same is true with our spirits. When our spirit is focused unto God, that's when we move into His realm, the realm of the supernatural and into an intimacy beyond with Him. And those times, we can say that heaven has come down to earth~ In those times, all that is weary within us becomes refreshed and renewed. All that is dead within becomes resurrected. Our dreams, they all become alive once again :D As Pst Kong said, we will not experience success in life if we focus on anything other than the source of Life - Jesus Christ :)
So this new year, i've made a decision to be more focused and not just to be more focused on anything, but on the things of God. There were things which i'd said all year long that i wanted to do for God, but have yet to materialise. So this year, i'm just gonna chuck out all the procrastination and apprehension and just go do it by faith! i know very well that God has great plans for me this year 2006, but in order to see them come into being, then i must first take that step of faith. I cant wait to experience the tens of thousands of steps which God will take towards me this year! I'm excited :D, i'm expectant :D I'm willing, to put aside my own agenda for Your agenda, for Your will. So, won't You take this lump of clay here, make it and mould it into the finest piece of pottery which You desire? Thank You :)
I dunno bout the rest of us (i speak to CHC peeps), but honestly, i lost my goal card which i did since the beginning of the year and i lost the soft copy of it as well after my hard drive got wiped out by a menacing virus... So yeap, dat was disappointing but dat's ok, cos we all gotta put our past defeats behind us and start anew!
2005 has been a year of ups and downs for me. I've gone through a fair share of spiritual downs whereby i questioned my faith in God. I've found myself in treacherous waters of fear and doubt and my spiritual life took a hard bite. There were times where i started harbouring thoughts of 'What Ifs', the negative kinds. There was a period in time when i totally stopped blogging, if not at the very minimal. Dat period of a lull, almost non existent time. Well, yeap, i've always said dat i would never blog if i didnt find any motivation, conviction, or revelation from the Holy Spirit and much of that period was due to this. The rest of the time, i was either too lazy or just too physically tired to write anything or 'preach' heheh..
NEVERTHELESS, and again i say, NEVERTHELESS. While I was faithless, God remained faithful! While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us amen? And as i look back at the past months of 2005, i'd recall numerous times whereby i just fell real short of the standard dat God has set for me. At least, well, i felt and i knew dat i could have done MUCH better :) But i've come to experience and realise the incredible extent of God's love for us. His mercy truly knows no end! His mercy is like eternity, and if you can comprehend dat, then you can put a mark to it. But i doubt so ;)
The past year, God has opened door after door of opportunity for me. i'd been given the chance to assist the leaders in my zone in a huge event for our CGs and friends; i'd been blessed with so many students to teach drums to; i've been asked to play the drums for one of our affiliated churches (Shekinah Harvest Church) a number of times; i've been given the awesome responsibility of being Assistant Music Director in our church's Christmas Production 2005! These are but a few of the many doors that the Lord has blessed me with :)
You know wat, i am so ABSOLUTELY grateful for all of these to God dat really, all the words i blog in here cant express how much i treasure them! I mean... gosh.. here i am seeing just how crappy i've been over the year, and on the other hand God looks at me with so much love and all?? It blows my mind... really.. Wat have i done to deserve this? Absolutely nothing, but God in His awesome love, decided to look at me like the apple of His eye :) Can you imagine dat? A God who loves me too much to abandon me to my own self and to the snares of sin, dat is the Lord whom i serve :D Though i fall, His hand will uphold me!
Well, i think the one thing that i will take away from it is the fact dat God never changes and is faithful unto the end. A few days ago, on Friday, as i was going back from work at camp, i nearly met with a terrible accident? I was at a T junction about to turn right. there was a car in front of me and as he turned right upon the traffic light showing a green arrow, an oncoming car raced past a struck the bonnet of this guy's car and both card were pretty much busted up. I saw the whole thing with my own eyes and i was just like a mere 3-5 metres from the unfortunate accident. And you know wat, dat could jolly well have been me in dat position, and it could have been much worse. But yet again, God protected me :)
I recall the numerous times where i'd been driving and i wasnt exactly Singapore's most exemplary driver (read: i travel beyond the speed limit and try to beat the next traffic light, weave in and out of traffic, cut corners at high speeds), yes and there was once on a post-rainy day, the roads were wetted for a slight while and the sun came up. Exiting out from the expressway, i took a hard right at 70kmplus and i didnt realised the road was wet and my car drifted... YES, i did an initial D which would have put Jay Chou to shame and i tell u it was SCARy.. honestly, i never felt so scared in a car before.. And yeah it wasnt something to be proud of. I'm mentioning this only as a caution to those of us who might have just graduated from driving school. Pls pls, dun ever drive like you are the king of the road :) I've since learnt to be very very cautious :)
Well, so i repented and told myself never to take His grace and faithfulness for granted again :) Well, God is good all the time :D Earlier on, i was just doing some mind drumming, that is playing drums in my head and voicing it out and.. yeah i was doing some really funky drum groove which was solid.. HAHA! Yeah, and i was set thinking.. if i could think of dat kinda groove in my mind, then surely i could make it happen on the drumset~ Dat reminds me of the power of focus, which was wat Pst Kong preached some weeks back in our JW premise. I was in a state of concentrated focus and my mind just let loose, and i find dat in times like dat is when i come up with some of the most creative stuff in my drums or when i try to compose a tune~
The same is true with our spirits. When our spirit is focused unto God, that's when we move into His realm, the realm of the supernatural and into an intimacy beyond with Him. And those times, we can say that heaven has come down to earth~ In those times, all that is weary within us becomes refreshed and renewed. All that is dead within becomes resurrected. Our dreams, they all become alive once again :D As Pst Kong said, we will not experience success in life if we focus on anything other than the source of Life - Jesus Christ :)
So this new year, i've made a decision to be more focused and not just to be more focused on anything, but on the things of God. There were things which i'd said all year long that i wanted to do for God, but have yet to materialise. So this year, i'm just gonna chuck out all the procrastination and apprehension and just go do it by faith! i know very well that God has great plans for me this year 2006, but in order to see them come into being, then i must first take that step of faith. I cant wait to experience the tens of thousands of steps which God will take towards me this year! I'm excited :D, i'm expectant :D I'm willing, to put aside my own agenda for Your agenda, for Your will. So, won't You take this lump of clay here, make it and mould it into the finest piece of pottery which You desire? Thank You :)
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