My thoughts are troubled and my heart somewhat heavy..

I just came home from watching the world trade center movie starring nicholas cage.

The story is seen through the real experiences of 2 policemen John McLoughlin and Will Jimeno who survived the collapse of the WTC on Sep 11 2001. Really touching movie.. Some of the scenes were quite tear jerking.

Although some parts were a little draggy, but yeah it still captures the emotion of the viewer. But i think the theme behind it is really one about treasuring your love ones and also about the love that Man is capable of extending towards his neighbour.

Normally we take everyone around us for granted until something really bad happens to them, and then we start to appreciate them more.. Sometimes, it takes a crisis to really bring out the meaning of love to ppl.. you may ask why, but the reason's pretty simple. It's really selfishness in the lives of ppl. You never appreciate something until it's taken away from you..

I think of all the major bad things dat have happened to me and i can see dat i learn something really valuable with each lesson.. funny how i never learnt them when things seemed alright. When you get too comfortable with life, you start losing perspective i think. Sometimes, you wonder why the world has so many bad things happening around.. and then you start to realise dat of cos, this world is messed up and corrupted by Man's sin. But thru the bad things, you learn wat is right and good. You see the contrast and you learn not to make the same mistake.

As for all the massive evil out there in the world, well we cant help it.. Our sin has made it so. But because it's already there, well, thru it, we actually learn the value of wat it means to be good. Put a good deed and another good deed side by side and they both look very much the same. But put something really heinous beside something good and then you see dat the good in contrast is REALLY good. Well, at the end of it all, everything evil will be repaid and Evil will be returned upon its own head :)

Changing the tone a little, i really felt for the wives of these 2 men.. i cant really imagine how it's like to have your loved one, your soulmate, your best friend in a critical situation such as this, fighting for their live, hanging at the end of the rope and there's NOTHING you can do about it?? Man.. it's so hard man.. i know maybe someday i might experience it..

But before dat day might ever happen, i just wanna tell my girl out there (whoever she may be :) ...) that yeah, i love you till death do we part :) Yeah, i don't wanna ever have to come across a day where i might never see you again, and live to regret not telling you how much you mean to me and how much i love you. *nods* I don't wanna start treasuring someone until she's taken away from me..

Yea, i love you and i love you and there's no end to saying how much i do because life here is short, and there's just not enough time and not enough words to say just how much i really love you~ Haha.. i'm not attached, no.. But i believe i needa live life with this kinda thinking, this kinda attitude. This movie has really gotten me thinking..

I have an image of this girl.. thing is, i dunno her name, i dunno how she looks like, i dunno wat she is like.. yeah get wat i mean? nevermind, thing is i dun even know who she is.. well, guess wat, dat's for me to find out! ;D Hmmm.. come to think of it.. right now i am 22.. and i've started working.. and in the next 5-10 years i'd definitely be expanding my family business.. save some good money, consolidate my finances, start earning more than i can imagine.. etc.. Well, and then i think it'll be a gd time to start a family..

WAH MAN I AM REALLY THINKING LONG LONG TERM MAN!! Okk.. well yeah dat's not a bad thing.. If you can visualise it, you can make it happen :) HAHAH! Well well, ok, just me doing some heavy duty thinking out loudly.. well, God knows best :)