Moving On, Getting Closure~
I am VERY happy :D A load of emotional burden which i have been carrying has been totally lifted off me! God is GOOD really :D i cannot describe how much better i am feeling haha!
Well, yes i've gotten answers to wat i needed to know and i've thankful for a gd fren~ Now i can move on in peace, focus more fully on things dat matter to God and not be in bondage. It is indeed a breakthrough for me. All these while many things are happening in my life, my ministry and my family business and all. This year and next is gonna be a tremendous time of change and reform which i foresee will not be exactly the smoothing thing.
But God is my strength nonetheless and wow :D Haha! I FEEL GOOD! I can move on in peace and not be bothered by anyone anymore and pursue higher things in life :D Wonderful~ In recent weeks from the time during KL up till now, alot of new things emerging. I start my vector control course next month onwards for a full month, after which i'd be granted a license to kill *wink*. Yeah i'm a hitman for the CIA... NO OF COS NOT, i'm talkin bout my pest extermination license :) It's quite funny cos one time one of the superiors of my unit asked me wat i'll be doing after i ORD and i told him bout my family business, and he was telling me there were lots of 'pest' also in the office, the kind u find with just two legs :P Yeah, and i got his point on dat and i told him, well the poison we use works the same nevertheless hahaha!
Well, so yeah my license to kill.. and then also i'm finding huge expansion in the area of the music ministry. After the drummers roster was rescheduled, praise God for dat, now i find myself understudying the dialect and chinese svc while still playing for the indonesian svc and i needed that, cos right nwo there are more drummers to go around.. and it'll be alot easier on us, i think i'll only be playing for one svc like once in maybe 1 1/2 months or something so praise God :D i have more free time to serve in other areas, other capacities.
There's alot i've been thinking about. One of the major things in my mind, is yet again the saxophone issue.. in the recent days, i've been feeling it more and more a huge desire to want to serve in the music ministry playing sax. Of cos i'm not givin up drums and never will :) i reckon dat since i'm not gonna be playing so regularly anymore for any service, i think i can afford to serve with my sax~ And i know and i know dat the gift of musical expression was placed in me and i know God put it in me to express this gift thru the beautiful sounds and versatility of the sax. So increasingly i've been burdened to see this area of my life being pushed to the max, there is tremendous potential in this area and i need to see an explosion! I think i am short changing myself and many others by not utilizing this.
Alot of ppl have been telling me to stick with drums and all and focus. Yeah i know wat they mean and i know they have my health's interest at heart because it is tiring to be playing every week~ And yes i WILL without a doubt continue to serve God and men with my drumming :) BUT i am YOUNG, and i am strong. I can afford to enlarge my musical capacity in ways which will largely benefit me. While i am yet young, i wanna give my all now so dat i wun look back in regret 10 or 20 years later and say now why didnt i do dat then? No, i dun wanna find myself in situations like dat. So yeah, please dun discourage me from pursuing my heart's desire. Cos i know i can shine largely in this area! And i want to! :D I wanna be a more versatile well rounded musician :D Like wat Steve Smith says, i am not a drummer, i am a musician ;)
Yeah, i needa talk to bro benson :) i think he'll understand wat i mean. And he's one of those whom i look up to as well besides bro boon, and in just ONE conversation with bro benson, he really taught me so much about increasing my capacity. I think it's high time i talk some heart talk with him :) Cool~ Haha :D GOD IS GOOD! WOOHOO! Ok i am going crazy la~ Hahaha!
Well, yes i've gotten answers to wat i needed to know and i've thankful for a gd fren~ Now i can move on in peace, focus more fully on things dat matter to God and not be in bondage. It is indeed a breakthrough for me. All these while many things are happening in my life, my ministry and my family business and all. This year and next is gonna be a tremendous time of change and reform which i foresee will not be exactly the smoothing thing.
But God is my strength nonetheless and wow :D Haha! I FEEL GOOD! I can move on in peace and not be bothered by anyone anymore and pursue higher things in life :D Wonderful~ In recent weeks from the time during KL up till now, alot of new things emerging. I start my vector control course next month onwards for a full month, after which i'd be granted a license to kill *wink*. Yeah i'm a hitman for the CIA... NO OF COS NOT, i'm talkin bout my pest extermination license :) It's quite funny cos one time one of the superiors of my unit asked me wat i'll be doing after i ORD and i told him bout my family business, and he was telling me there were lots of 'pest' also in the office, the kind u find with just two legs :P Yeah, and i got his point on dat and i told him, well the poison we use works the same nevertheless hahaha!
Well, so yeah my license to kill.. and then also i'm finding huge expansion in the area of the music ministry. After the drummers roster was rescheduled, praise God for dat, now i find myself understudying the dialect and chinese svc while still playing for the indonesian svc and i needed that, cos right nwo there are more drummers to go around.. and it'll be alot easier on us, i think i'll only be playing for one svc like once in maybe 1 1/2 months or something so praise God :D i have more free time to serve in other areas, other capacities.
There's alot i've been thinking about. One of the major things in my mind, is yet again the saxophone issue.. in the recent days, i've been feeling it more and more a huge desire to want to serve in the music ministry playing sax. Of cos i'm not givin up drums and never will :) i reckon dat since i'm not gonna be playing so regularly anymore for any service, i think i can afford to serve with my sax~ And i know and i know dat the gift of musical expression was placed in me and i know God put it in me to express this gift thru the beautiful sounds and versatility of the sax. So increasingly i've been burdened to see this area of my life being pushed to the max, there is tremendous potential in this area and i need to see an explosion! I think i am short changing myself and many others by not utilizing this.
Alot of ppl have been telling me to stick with drums and all and focus. Yeah i know wat they mean and i know they have my health's interest at heart because it is tiring to be playing every week~ And yes i WILL without a doubt continue to serve God and men with my drumming :) BUT i am YOUNG, and i am strong. I can afford to enlarge my musical capacity in ways which will largely benefit me. While i am yet young, i wanna give my all now so dat i wun look back in regret 10 or 20 years later and say now why didnt i do dat then? No, i dun wanna find myself in situations like dat. So yeah, please dun discourage me from pursuing my heart's desire. Cos i know i can shine largely in this area! And i want to! :D I wanna be a more versatile well rounded musician :D Like wat Steve Smith says, i am not a drummer, i am a musician ;)
Yeah, i needa talk to bro benson :) i think he'll understand wat i mean. And he's one of those whom i look up to as well besides bro boon, and in just ONE conversation with bro benson, he really taught me so much about increasing my capacity. I think it's high time i talk some heart talk with him :) Cool~ Haha :D GOD IS GOOD! WOOHOO! Ok i am going crazy la~ Hahaha!
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