Indonesia Boleh!
I couldnt make it for Indon svc rehearsal yesterday nite at JW because we went out to celebrate my dad and sister's birthdays :D
Well of cos, i was nervous and concerned.. I wondered whether i could pull it off. So this afternoon, svc ended pretty late and man.. i speeded all the way down the PIE from Expo back to JW. So yeah we got there, quickly set up, and did a chop chop rehearsal~
I must say dat given some 3 weeks ago, i would have fumbled and crashed the svc. But something extraordinary happened to me within the past week.. Yeah something REALLY amazing dat took me to a whole new level in the way i look at playing for svcs :) After dat fruitful heart to heart talk i had with Bro Benson.. whoa.. he really made me have a total makeover of the way i viewed ministry and my service in it.. Wow.. I GOT SO CONVICTED MAN!
So yeah, never will i put my own agenda ever again on the plate when i'm playing for any svc NO MATTER wat service dat may be, whether indon or dialect, whether prayer meeting, chinese svc or in future main :) And the past week i put it to the test. I prayed a sincere prayer from my heart telling God dat my only goal in the svc, was to be able to bring down His presence from above :) Not my will, but Your will. Not by might nor power but by His Spirit! And true enough.. suddenly, i felt no tension and i felt no stress at all while playing! In fact, i was enjoying every single bit of the svc! I really had fun playing.
Although i made some errors in certain parts, but becuz my heart was sold out in glorifying God with my talents, whoa, His presence was there to cover every mistake dat we made! Haha! God IS GOOD la! Man.. i find myself in total focus! The whole feeling is simply amazing! Yeah, it's high time i started bringing in some excellence in my serving. Sometimes u just serve and serve until it comes to a point whereby u are not adding any value at all to the ministry.. and dat's when we gotta have our minds retuned and renewed again.. perspective must change, individuality must go out of the window and God's way must come first :)
I mean, the answer is real simple rite? Worship God in spirit and in truth. But u'd be surprised how many ppl just serve God because it is a duty to them. I am guilty of dat too.. but thank God my mind's renewing :) Bro benson really said it perfectly when he told me, all he wants to do is to obey God :) so if it means God telling him to stop playing the sax and go take a tambourine and dance on stage to bring down the presence of God, then he will obey and do it ;) Now dat is obedience :)
But God is real good, and i dun think He will make us do things we weren't meant to do or like to do.. well, sometimes He tests us, but nevertheless, He knows the best and wants the best for us :)
Well, it's an utmost privilege to serve as a musician in CHC. Because, out of 20,000 plus ppl, you are one of the chosen few to serve in a ministry dat is such an impt and indispensible part of the church. And, wow.. i tell u.. i foresee great days ahead in this ministry :) i forsee myself improving in my ability to flow, my skills increase, my knowledge and my reactions during svcs all increase! Yes :) Dat will be reality :) time to raise the standards! Time to be all dat God has called me to be :) I pray dat i will never ever take any svc for granted ever again :) Wow.. i feel the presence.. :)
Well of cos, i was nervous and concerned.. I wondered whether i could pull it off. So this afternoon, svc ended pretty late and man.. i speeded all the way down the PIE from Expo back to JW. So yeah we got there, quickly set up, and did a chop chop rehearsal~
I must say dat given some 3 weeks ago, i would have fumbled and crashed the svc. But something extraordinary happened to me within the past week.. Yeah something REALLY amazing dat took me to a whole new level in the way i look at playing for svcs :) After dat fruitful heart to heart talk i had with Bro Benson.. whoa.. he really made me have a total makeover of the way i viewed ministry and my service in it.. Wow.. I GOT SO CONVICTED MAN!
So yeah, never will i put my own agenda ever again on the plate when i'm playing for any svc NO MATTER wat service dat may be, whether indon or dialect, whether prayer meeting, chinese svc or in future main :) And the past week i put it to the test. I prayed a sincere prayer from my heart telling God dat my only goal in the svc, was to be able to bring down His presence from above :) Not my will, but Your will. Not by might nor power but by His Spirit! And true enough.. suddenly, i felt no tension and i felt no stress at all while playing! In fact, i was enjoying every single bit of the svc! I really had fun playing.
Although i made some errors in certain parts, but becuz my heart was sold out in glorifying God with my talents, whoa, His presence was there to cover every mistake dat we made! Haha! God IS GOOD la! Man.. i find myself in total focus! The whole feeling is simply amazing! Yeah, it's high time i started bringing in some excellence in my serving. Sometimes u just serve and serve until it comes to a point whereby u are not adding any value at all to the ministry.. and dat's when we gotta have our minds retuned and renewed again.. perspective must change, individuality must go out of the window and God's way must come first :)
I mean, the answer is real simple rite? Worship God in spirit and in truth. But u'd be surprised how many ppl just serve God because it is a duty to them. I am guilty of dat too.. but thank God my mind's renewing :) Bro benson really said it perfectly when he told me, all he wants to do is to obey God :) so if it means God telling him to stop playing the sax and go take a tambourine and dance on stage to bring down the presence of God, then he will obey and do it ;) Now dat is obedience :)
But God is real good, and i dun think He will make us do things we weren't meant to do or like to do.. well, sometimes He tests us, but nevertheless, He knows the best and wants the best for us :)
Well, it's an utmost privilege to serve as a musician in CHC. Because, out of 20,000 plus ppl, you are one of the chosen few to serve in a ministry dat is such an impt and indispensible part of the church. And, wow.. i tell u.. i foresee great days ahead in this ministry :) i forsee myself improving in my ability to flow, my skills increase, my knowledge and my reactions during svcs all increase! Yes :) Dat will be reality :) time to raise the standards! Time to be all dat God has called me to be :) I pray dat i will never ever take any svc for granted ever again :) Wow.. i feel the presence.. :)
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