Through The Fires And Waters, He Is There!

Just finish watching the online service. I was feeling pretty despondent the whole day.. dunno why..
felt heavy in the heart even though i sought to hide it from others.

Went down to Matthew's church to help him tune up the drums. It was pretty good the result~ Praise God
for dat :) Later on, i met up with Huiling to discuss some stuff with investing and all~ Yeah, i thank
God these are things dat He's getting me exposed to while i am yet young! Savings plans, investment
plans, unit trusts.. yeah i know He wants me to use money wisely and make money wisely as well :)

Anyway, i wasnt feeling all dat well the whole day with a bad throat, blocked runny nose.. yeah fuzzy
in the head.. must be the haze and the lack of good sleep. so i am gonna sleep after typing this message.

This whole week was good and bad.. good because the guard of honour parade went well, and it was
a good experience for me. However, came friday i just felt so low in heart.. and i think i know why
now.. friday was a mad rush gathering marches and all.. and things are so disorganised in
the bands i dunno how they do it man honestly.. i was super fed up with the way they treat us juniors,
in like how they expect us to know things we have not been taught.

During the full band rehearsal for the up coming changing of guard ceremony, we are supposed to play
a number of march pieces. And man it was confusing cos they played bits and pieces of each and they
didnt tell us the sequence of the marches in order.. so there i was rummaging through a pile of
march pieces while the band was playing and by the time i found it, they already played half the
march... it was frustrating. I couldnt sight read fast enough.. and dat was discouraging..
and my bagpack was overloaded with clothes and shoes and wat not and watever lah.. and then there's
the problem with my signing on decision.. bottomline, the day sucked big time emotionally and
mentally..

NEVERTHELESS, and this is the main point of this whole blog - not to rant but to glorify :D

And the point is, Pst Ulf really ministered to me these past few days especially during services
yesterday and today which i watched online :) i'm looking forward to tmrw's service.

Indeed, we will be discouraged along the way as we seek and pursue our calling. The calling will be
threatened, the calling will dry up in the valley of dry bones.. But God is ALWAYS with us in the
fires or waters :) He'll be there with us because He has called us by name! And we belong to Him :)

All these rough and tough times and difficult situations we face are from the devil who puts obstacles
in our ways, who discourages us, who tries to tear us down and break us apart. But as Pst Ulf preached,
although men can be inspired by satan to come against us but God can take the very same thing and use
it for the good of those who love Him. And also, the manure of your life, if you bring dat into your
calling, bring it under the Cross, God will use it for the good of you! Yes, the manure, the dirt and
filth of our lives, God uses dat to form us.. out of situations and circumstances we're in, he moulds
us through those.

Dat's why He's my Source. Men will disappoint me; the world will disappoint me; even Christians will
disappoint me! But as Pst Ulf said, dat's GOOD NEWS for me :D Cos, then i'll never put my trust in
men or Christians, but in Him and Him alone :) So despite all the unhappy things i went through, God
is still worthy to be praised and glorified! HAllelujah!

No matter wat, i'm pressing on in this race :) I know ppl are praying for me, interceding for me
in my life purpose and all. Thank God for them :) I know jolly lolly well dat God has given me 2 very
strong abilities.. No make dat 3.. 3 VERY POWERFUL abilities and that is the gift of my musical ability,
my ability to teach, and my ability to preach. AND I DUN BELIEVE dat i will not be able use these 3
things which He has given me to fulfill the purpose of my life. I SIMPLY CANNOT BELIEVE IT period.
Becos as wat Pst Ulf said, when God says something specific to you, dat thing will SURELY come to past!
So without a shadow of a doubt, i believe one day, i'm gonna perform music, i'm gonna preach, and
i'm gonna teach! And God has been VERY VERY specific about these areas in my life, showing me through
circumstances and ppl as well.

My life is not done unless i can be worthy of my call which He has placed in me since the dawn of
my time on this earth and dat call is a holy call to pursue Him and live out my life of salvation bearing
eternal fruit! And dat is how i know everything is gonna be alright, cos i got Jesus in me! Hallelujah!