The Sick and The Fallen

Fucked up day today. YES I SAID... FUCKED UP....

I just feel XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXtremely fucked up today. lost my mood, no appetite to eat, my
stomach's fuckin giving me trouble and i'm feeling hot all over and getting sick.

wat can i say.. so many things on my mind.. all these small pieces of crap added up today and
deep down i just exploded after all the pent up shit i've been suppressing.

I FUCKIN WANNA SCREAM MAN...... REALLY. NEEDA SORTA LIKE KILL SOMETHING OR SOMEONE...

I DUNNO BUT I'VE GROWN TO BE LIKE SO DAMN TOLERANT, IT'S AMAZING I HAVENT ERUPTED IN
ANYBODY'S FACE YET.. IT'S AMAZING, I CANT BELIEVE DAT I CAN BE SO DAMN CALM WHEN DEEP
DOWN, THE FIRE'S RISING..

The last time i blew up, which was a long time back, was on the blog.. every damn thing i cursed
at and swore at.. on the blog.. it's like my virtual punching bag. i guess dat's the good thing about
an outlet such as this blog. i can dump all my wrath in here without hurtin anybody which is a good
thing cos i might seriously hurt someone with my words or worse still my actions. and i know i'm
capable of evil things..

i'm not gonna talk about the details of why i feel so fucked up.. but after screamin out here, it feels
slightly better.