Treasure of The Heart

It's like 12am plus on a monday morning from sunday a few minutes ago and i CANT SLEEP...

And it's not good cos i have a long long day at work tmrw.. But anyway yeah the reason why i can't sleep is not because i don't want to.

Technically, i could put the blame on one thing alone.. BUT.. yeah deep down i know i cant afford to blame this thing..

Wat on God's green earth am i trying to say here? well, oh God help me.... i think i'm having a crush on someone....

Oh man..

Haiz...

My whole head is spinning now.. wat is this man...

I am SO NOT gonna reveal any sort of clear cut evidence dat might jolly well incriminate me..

If i blurt it out here, i think most ppl are gonna be like "WHAT?!?!" Yeah.. dat'll be the reaction i'd expect..

But geez man, i think i just gotta blog the following down...

Some Reasons Why I Am Having A Crush On This Person:

1. She's got a really beautiful smile :) I love it..

2. When i hear her voice, i am pretty much captivated, love talking with her :)

3. She exudes a reaaaally feminine, ladylike charm which to me is like WOW... you can almost say dat if my knee caps weren't strong enough, i'd give way...

4. Very imptly, she is a Godly woman :)

5. When i am with her, i feel totally comfortable and i enjoy every moment of it... :)

6. I treasure every conversation i have with her and i look forward to new ones.

7. To me, she is beautiful on the outside, and more so on the inside, she definitely is :)


Yeah, i think i am going crazy.. i needa slap myself a few hundred times... no make dat a few thousand..

ARGH!!! Oh God.. please, help me..


Some things i've come to realise about myself:

When it comes to matters of the heart, i am actually very very open minded indeed? Or to put it in another way, when it comes to looking for a potential partner, i really really don't care about factors such as, status, age, nationality, culture, race, distance etc etc.. the kinda factors which ppl may think are impt in a relationship, i don't necessarily think so :)

Maybe u can call me idealistic in this area, but i am the kind of person who doesnt allow such factors to stop me from developing a R/S with someone 'drastically' different from me. Of cos, i have my limitations and such but, i think my OB markers are pretty wide.

I don't believe dat something like a difference in status, a wide age gap (10 years? maybe be a little more?~), different nationality, race and culture etc can stop two ppl from coming together.. I do admit dat it is TOUGH, yes, TOUGH.. but NOT impossible :) Maybe ppl like me just gotta work harder! And i love the challenge :) I'm the kinda person whereby things mean much more to me when i fight for it with my heart, soul and strength :)

I think wat matters to me is dat both parties involved in such a situation, decide to work together to make things happen simply because they love each other :) Yeah i think dat whole journey is a wonderful testimony to wat i call love and commitment :) I think one of the most tragic things for the human soul is to not be able to be with someone you truly love.


Man...... Oh man....

I think this person will have a very special place in my heart :) And i will treasure the wonderful memories :)

Oh well...