it's bout 5.20am in the mornin of tuesday. got out of bed becos of a very bad case of stomachaches and diarrhoea. well dat's wat excess stress does to u, at least to me. nonetheless i think i'm of better frame of mind to blog..or at least i think.

Oh, the folks supposed to be back yesterday with the younger sis but apparently..they arent..mum didnt msg me..erm..no one called home. maybe they are at the new home and maybe not..but one thing for sure is..yea i suddenly miss their presence around the house.
The last time my folks had a heated arguement, they were like a couple of wild cats tryin to tear each others' throats out. Well, dat's family or rather married couple feuding for u, the david residence style~
My folks are about 50 or so and have been married for bout a gd 20 or so years. The thing bout them is dat there's never a day or so where they wudnt yell down each others' necks and many times u wished they'd either keep their mouths shut becos there were hardly any logic in their arguements or they argued over the lamest, most trivial matters of the world. And each day, divorce seems like the only answer to the problem. well dat's wat alot of couples choose dun they? cant get along, cite irreconcialiable differences as the reason and viola! ur marriage is over~ like wtf..
I admire the kind of bond my parents have cos, i believe deep down in their hearts they love each other and at the end of the day, the wild cats come together to lick each others' wounds. if only we learnt how to give and take..learn how to agree to disagree and still learn to accept and forgive at the end of the day..
Anyway, i hope they come back today..becos yea i miss them alot even though i get irritated havin them around sometimes hah~

I cudnt sleep throughout the nite cos yea my heart was heavy, actually it still is a lil. And when ur heart's heavy..funny things start to happen to u. like..my appetite plunged rock bottom..the mere sight of food now makes me queezy, since 1am i havent slept becos every 45min i'm woken by some strange heavy feelin. so effectively, my whole sleep is disrupted. the mouth ulcers are invading..u feel sick and u naturally become more physically tired for obvious reasons and as for me i think i need to be drinkin like a camel cos i've lost alot of water. heh, it's like emotional AIDS or sumthin, instead of ur immune system shutting down, the honour goes to ur "emo" system instead hahah!

Hm, ok suddenly i'm stucked as to wat i should write. Alrite, hm..i am a man of faults, dats y i'm only human. I guess wat makes us bond are our similarities and differences. As for the area of r/s, well they sure arent a bed of roses and when the going gets tough, you gotta face the music and brave the storms. Quarrels and misunderstandings..well these are inevitable in everyday life i suppose. Are they bad? well perhaps, but they are gd in a way as well. There isnt a bad thing in this world dat cannot have good transpire out of it and a good thing in this world dat cannot have bad transpire out of it. I guess it's whether you wanna allow animosity to eat u up, or whether you wanna be humble enough to see the faults u have.
There's this passage in the bible which says sumthin like: How can you remove the log in ur brother's eye when there is a speck in ur own or sumthin like dat. basically, it is tryin to tell us not to be erm, hypocritic and realise ur own faults first and deal with em before u confront others about theirs.

I think in a relationship rite, if it doesnt make u a better person then what good is it for? yea dat sounds very alice walkerish~ and it is. i guess it helps one find the self and when u understand the self, u will better understand the ppl around you. There are many things to know and many to learn, but we can't learn everything, we dun need to know everything. There needn't be an answer to everything.
wait a min, i think dat was the stomach.. hehe~ it's groanin again..gosh..

hm, ok i think i've written enough for the day, wat's day again? hah..geez doesnt matter anymore.
ok, i'm gonna spent myself a gd half an hour in the loo while you guys enjoy reading~ cya round ;)