ok damnit..i lied..

hm...can't sleep yet..as usual..when it gets to this time, i just can't fall asleep..
been thinkin bout yesterday...and today...as well...hm and i still dunno; i still cant find the reason y i did wat i did...perhaps yea i know y i did what i did
but i just chose not to tell myself dat i did do wat i did...anyway, watever i did, it was dumb anyway...stupid ppl and the stupid things they do...*shrugs*

gettin drunk feels like...u r wasted. u feel so bad dat u'd think dat u'd be dead any moment becos u've just lost ur mind sort of. at least dat was what i felt.
if i had a gun or sumthin, i'd have done a kurt cobain man..seriously..i probably wudnt have felt anything given my senses was so ultra numbed and all..

puking over and over for about wat...30 mins or so (as wat i was told by van)? dat was bad shit man honestly..really really bad..i cudnt stand up..nono let's not
even talk about standing..i cudnt even move about without slumping to the ground again. i was totally immobilized by the effects of the damn alcohol.

have hardly a recollection of wat happened but i really wanna thank jude, rox and van for putting up with the shit i dispensed and pls pls if u see me on my way up the highway, pls get me to U-turn thanx ;)

Jude: thanx for like dragging me across the hall into the study room to sleep ;) must have felt like moving a corpse wasnt it?
hehe..reminds of of sheep shearing in Perth, Aussieland. They'll sedate the shep and drag it by it's armpits...yes i was like dat yesterday...perhaps even worse.

Rox: thanx alot for takin care of this hopeless guest of urs. really sorry for causing such trouble which was totally un-called for. Glad u love the avril cd i got u! i think i wanna get one for myself too hehe~ now u can go apply for ur driver's license already hahah! gosh i wanna apply too man..been procrastinating too long..

Van: thanx for talking me thru the whole puking process..yes the full 30 or so minutes of it. Putting up with the stench for 30 mins, dat's sumthin nobody wud probably be willing to do, and i'm very thankful to u for having put up with dat kinda shit. and yea u have special permission to break my nose or watever u wanna do to stop me from drinkin too much next time haha!

finally, thanx to all those whom gave me tissues..or water..or wat not in watever way because now i have no recollection of watever happened last nite..

glad to have ppl who care bout u even when u r in shitty dire straits. Nobody wud wanna go near some1 who's drunk and who's pukin his guts out i reckon. Right now, i can't sleep thinkin bout all these, and i tell myself dat i am fortunate dat i've got ppl who care bout me even though i can be sorta washed-up at times. Thanx guys really. I owe u guys one ;)